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Saturday, September 9, 2017

Quiiiickie updates about summer and the eeeeeend of it :S

Huhuuuuuuu Cuties and peooooplees :) 

Finally weeeeekend  *_* Yeeeey ;) So glad this looong working week is over again ;) there was so much to finish and prepare;) and also our server got an update and everything was like chaoooos :D So whats up right now? Autumn definitively has settled in and the temperatures here in Germany fell down rapidly and at night it is so freeeezing already :S 
And this is something i also notice a lot, because if the weather is so dusty, misty, rainy and not nice all day, my mood is also dropping so faaaast :( I hate that .......
But i think with this i am not alone, because it is a rather common phenomenon :S in German we say: wetterfühlig/empfindlich :( 
So what else did i doooo this summer, because i actually didn´t really go on vactation after my wonderful Barcelona holidays ;) 
In fact i truly tried to enjoy the warm summer days and spend a lot of time in the sun, and driving cabrio, going out, and making some daily trips to remember ;) So on one day me and my mum decided it would be time to make a trip to Prien :SS I think you may won´t remember which meaning this place has to me: I have been there at the clinic and since my release i wasn't there ....... so we picked up the car and visited the sea promenade and had lunch at the typical restaurant there and reviewed time a little bit.... i was so emotional on this day... but it was so amazing to see not so much has changed, just like only the season there and me and myself.....
This is at Prien at the Chiemsee :S

But nevertheless whats going on? Next week my second year of vocational school starts and also i am not bored at work at the moment ;) Because we changed our seats and now i sit in the main floor and get involved a lot more than sitting upstairs ;) so lets see how this develops and how and how much i like it :S 

Otherwise i had some new and old meet-ups with some nice people and met new people which truly made me somehow happy ;) i hope those are honest ones and i feel a little bit comfortable with them ;) So for example it is agaaain Augsburger Herbstplärrer (It´s Plärrer tiiiiime wuuuhuuuu *_*) And i and my sis went there again, but this time with some friends of her boyfriend ;) and it truly was so funny as well ;) we laughed so much, danced on the Bierbänke and had a lot of fun drinking ;) and sooo on ;) Haha Bavarian traditions can be so fun (you all over the world must tthink we are crazy somehow, but this is our culture guys ;DDD) 
So but now again enough :) i had a lot of alcohol yesterday and now i am a little bit tired :S but i wish you hopefully a lovely sunny sunday my cuties ;) 
xxxxxxxx


Sunday, August 20, 2017

Hellooo again ;) All about terror and clicheeees ;) what opposites actually :S

Huhuuuu my Cuties ;) 
Long time noooo see/blog .... :S I am so sorry for this, but i absolutely felt so unsure of what to write about, it seemed like i had no idea of what could be blogged on here.... 
But according to an actual topic which can actually be connected to one of my recent posts, i thought of writing about it.... Terror in BARCELONA ;) Barcelona, my lovely holiday place this year, the city which i absolutely felt so welcomed and I enjoyed spending my time so muuuch... There something so horrible and shocking happened, i just can´t believe it ;) For me this is kind of unreal, because i exactly know the place at La Rambla where this transporter killed people.... :( and this makes you think about how would you have behaved in this certain situation? :( I really don´t know... Why do people act like this? Why do they kill others just to spread pain and fear? Don´t they know what they do to the family members and friends of the victims..... :S 

Especially the fact that this time it hit this wonderful, shining, welcoming, open-hearted city is so shocking for me ;) I just remembered how great it was being there, because you didn't just feel like a tourist, because all the people were really friendly, courteous and lovely :) so this truly is a really bad thing.....No words for this.....

SO to continue this post with something less dramatic and more normal, funny and Nutella-like again ;) I just read an article in our newspaper in which (according to holiday season now=)) typical cliches and stereotypes of nations were discussed and explained and it was so funny to read, so i also did some amusing research on this topic on the internet ;) And in this and the next few posts i will show now some of them, because all in one would be a little tooo much :D 

So i just start with the moooost important ones haha :D no just joking, but i really will start with my home country Germany ;) because we as the Deutsche have of course many prejudices in other nations ;) Buuut according to those, i am so zero percent a german haha :D because those say, that the Germans are always on time (=pünktlich), stingy (=sparsam, geizig), accurate and organized ;) and for me personally many of them have an stork in the ass ;) haha :D they are simply boring in some ways :) but they also get often are named with the stereotype of working hard on the one side, but also drinking beer all day and night ;) as well as eating sauerkraut and sausage always ;) Woman are always wearing a dirndl and men lederhosen ;) i think those are so funny to imagine :S 


So much on this now ;) next post probably will be about our lovely neighbors from the british isles ;) Haha but don´t worry i won´t be mean on you, because i love this country ;) 
Sending you all my love on this sunday ;) as here in Germany the sun is rare today xD 
xxxxx
Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Sometimes the things go another way planned, but most probably this is sooo much better and cooler ;)

Huhuuuuuu my angels ;) 
Initially i actually had planned to post something different right now, but soooo much crazy things happened recently and i now changed my plans and wanted to make a quick uuuuupdate right now ;))) 
Sooooo to start with the serious stuff (followed by the more cool and funny things;D) on thursday the week before last week I had my "Zwischenprüfung" from my apprenticeship (I googled it and the meaning in english i think is midterm exam?! :D) i hope u understand what i mean :DD So i had to do it in three subjects : Steuerlehre, Rechnungswesen and Wirtschaftslehre+Sozialkunde ;) to explain all of those it would be too complicated so lets just say it all was about taxes, numbers and earnings :) heehee to say it in short ;) 
I was so excited before the test and now i am just so happy it finally is over ;) hopefully i pass it ;) just press thumbs for the results :) 
So here we are Lukas in the "O", Susi in the "P" and me in the "B" 
Aaaaaand moving on ;) soooooo what i so much love about summer is, that the days are long and moost of the time (In germany this is rather seldom) the nights are not so cold and you can sit outside so long or go on open-air events and parties ;) 
And anoooooother big thing i wouldn´t ever be able to do with my fucking illness by my side was going on a festival and feeling free and great ;) Such an amazing experience i can tell you!!!!!!!!!!! I got the ticket as a birthday present already in march and was so nervous and excited about it :) I never imagined what it could be like at such a music festival with so many celebrating people for more than a whole weekend ;) :D but we had so much to drink with us that the mood automatically would come up :DDD

So i just decided to let it rolllllllll .... :) and it was a great decision ;) t is quite hard to describe all those feelings of such an atmosphere ;) because it was soooooo warm and just perfect for sitting outside at the camping place, meeting many new exciting people and going on the stage, listening, dancing and celebrating to the electric music beats ;) just feeling kind of free... sounds strange, but this is just like it felt ;) not caring what anyone thinks of you and just doing whatever you enjoy, love and feel like in this moment ;) and forgetting about the daily life and being someone different just right where you are *_* So just WOW for finishing this post ;) stepping out of your known and walking right in the unknown sometimes just can be one of the greatest ideas of your life, okaaaay? ;) 
xxxxx
Again another fake tattooooo and many bracelets ;)
The style i love *__*
Sunday, July 2, 2017

The Nutella Girl goes to BARCELONA *_*

HUUUUUUUHU my Cuuuties :-*
I really wanted to buy this shirt i swear ;) but then i saw
those Nutella B-ready and they are heaven
so i bought these ;) Haha 

I am sooo sorry for not having posted for a while, but i didn't have any focus for blogging the last weeks :D Some school work, having some new contacts in private life, work, ...... etc... :) but all in all it was such a cool time ;) eeeeeespecially last week, becauuuuse I was in BARCELONA for 5 days *___* Ah I loved and enjoyed it so much, you won´t believe if i tell you ;) I fallen so in love with this fantastic beautiful southern city ;) 

So this all in all was a really funny story, because our flight from Munich was booked at 12.55 :) and i forgot at booking that i have my "steuerlehre" test at this day as well :S so i actually planned to skip school at this day, buuut no, so i went there, wrote the test and off we drove to Munich :) haha so lucky it all mostly went well ;) so after our rather short flight we arrived at BARCELOOONA  ;) it kind of felt unreal at first, but i was so glad taking some days off :) So we went by metro to the street where our booked AirBnB was ;) it was so much in the center, only a few meters away from one of the most busy and connecting places: Plaza Catalunya ;) It was a lovely small room with a cool balcony ;) and the special thing on our arriving day was it was a public holiday and the whole night there were some fireworks all over the city *_* WOW ;) 
Here it is my little heart *_*
SO the next days we wanted to see something of the city, so on the following day we shopped our way down Las Ramblas, which is the typical shopping street with many many sales stands with souvenirs, food places, and many other stuff ;) I loved it ;) So we also visited Hard Rock Cafe and i love those shirts and merchandise ;) In the evening we had booked a night bus tour where we saw the city at night and this also was like being in another world ;) everything so colorful, warm and cute ;) In the next days (because i have to make it shorter otherwise this post takes ages ) ;) we visited the world famous La Sagrada Familia (the lights of the windows was breathtaking), the Park Guell, drove a Hop-on Hop-off Bus Tour, spend an afternoon at the Beach, visited a chocolate Museum ;) and I spontaneously made my first TATTOO ;) here in Barcelona :DD OMG this was such a funny happening ;) we saw a tattoo studio in kind of a backyard called "Meat Shop" (the name is so crazy as well haha) and i decided to make a little open heart on my left hand ;) Wow and my tattoo artist also was half german ahaha :) And it has such a special meaning to me ;) But i think many of you will now ;) kind of a reminder for myself ;) 
Soooo al in all the 5 days went on toooooooo fast and i was so sad at our flight home :S but nevertheless, i definitively know now, i wanna live in another country one day ;) maybe only for a short episode of time, but i will ;) Thanks so much Barcelona for such a special time ;) *_* Wish you all now a great day now ;) I have to learn for my midterm exam in 2 weeks.... :S Wish me luck okay? ;) xxxx
Thanks Mama for making it unforgettable ;) :-*

Saturday, June 10, 2017

Summer kicking in (maybe just a little bit so far, but it flooows ;))

Haaaaaaaallöchen my wonderful readers ;) 

Long tiiiime no post, i am really sorry, but i had so much to do and on my mind that i simply had some lack of ideas of what to write about ;) because i am sure you are not really interested in taxes and some stuff like i need to learn at vocational school :S :) but now i have two weeks off school, but unfooooortunately i instead still have to go to work on these days.... :S puuuhpuuh this can be kind of exhausting sometimes, because of little indifferences between my ladies there:S OmG sometimes i feel like i am in kindergarten with those talks....:D:D Haha no but i am so glad working there and i still enjoy it so much ;) 
SO whats up right now? ;)

They also shooted the video to their clip "Something just
like this" live in Munich!!!!
The show was sooo wow *_* 
Puuuuuh some really cool things were up the last days ;) beeeecause on tuesday, COLDPLAY *_* played their first european tour concert in muuuunich ;) and guess who had tickets????? :D oh this was just wow i can tell you ;) (Even the day didn´t start any good at all, because it was only 8 °C, raaaained like crazy and all parking places were full just about 4 pm, but the band would just play at 8 o´clock :) so we were already so early there, but nevertheless places we had in the Olympia Stadium were covered ;) lucky ussss ;) so we listened to two opening acts ;) and aaaafterwards it was time for Coldplay ;) Wow i am such a fan ;) The atmosphere was just stunning and hard to describe ;) everyone received a lightening bracelet which lighted in different colors suitable for the songs ;) and this was just such an unbelievable concert and evening for me ;) 60000 people were there and chris martin and his band made such an goose bump feeling :) *_* I really was so catched that i did nearly miss the end and we hurried up to our car ;)




Sooo and what else is ooooh ;) Juust as the topic itself says we here in Germany are constantly waiting for summer to finally come and STAY!!!! ^^because there is no inbetween between cold, rainy and dusty or 3 day the total heat ;) Confusing, i just hope i can put my summer clothes finally in the front of my wardrobe now ;) Sooo i also wanna to do such things as going to the local swimming pool or just tanning outside ;) i also was already in the water, even though it is really icy in my opinion ;) like 22 °C ;) And yesterday i went for the first time this year strawberry picking ;) i enjoy this a lot, because it offers many many berries and also some fun ;) haha ;) 
In bavarian german: don´t moan!
The best is yet to come ;)

Wish you all a lovely evening now ;) xxxx





Thursday, May 25, 2017

Such wonderful people and thoooooose other ones... :$

Huhuuuuu all of you angels and devils out theeeere :) 
Haha no of course i know you are all just angels for suuuure (just like me right haha :D) 

Sooooo this post is dedicated to all the people who are always behind my back and by my side at every stage of my life !!!!! Those who are so special to me and never left my side even in the most dark days up to today :) *_* I think you all know who you are :) and i just know that without you i wouldn´t be where i am today ;) 
So i may also once wrote a post about this topic, but in the last time i again and again realize how important it is to have people around you who you know you can always count on ;) even if you act like the mooooooost silly person on the planet, like the maybe most awkward and embarrassing one and also like the most ill one :S People that never left your side are like a pot of gold at one side of the rainbow : indispensable and essential ;) 
Seeing people leave in life is common, and seeing them moving on also, but seeing people leaving your life with kind of a bitterness and disgust is so hard i truly can tell you......
Loosing someone who once was your best friend can be harmful and this also is..... but moving on if a person does not want to stay in your life is essential as well ;) because this is part of living :) so forget about those and don´t look back (I speak from my own experience, because still caring for them is wrong :) I always keep reminding myself: Karma hits everyone by time....

Haha no i am not mean at all, but i just remember how bad those people were behaving towards myself when i was looking like dead.... they handled me like i was dead: I wasn´t invited anywhere to join them and i wasn´t asked to come along with them :S when we met, we just said hello and this was it :S all they were doing was giving me the greeeat great advice of seeking help in a clinic :( of course in the end they were right : the clinic was the best thing which i could do, but the way they treated me in these days, just was the worst shit and fuck.... :( So just so much to this topic :) but still until today i think such false friends exist for everybody in some situations of their life... they never leave your mind and your ways forever....maybe some of those should keep this in their mind as well... just saying ...










Now up to those who never left and still took my hand when i was at the worst point in my life ;) I hope you all know who you are and i want you to know that i truly LOVE U :) even if i am sometimes bad showing it, you are the BOMB !!!!^^
Thanks for all the helping hands, the hard words, the warm gestures and the open heart :) I love u to pieces ;) And for all of you reading this I want you to know that this blog means so much to me and i am so happy you are reading it with a good intention ;) xxxx
Thursday, May 4, 2017

Awwwww... is it really MAY again?

Haaaappy May everyooonee :) 

Sooo my lovely cuuute readers ;)
It is May now ;) Uuuuuunbelievable right? Where has the time gone? I absolutely can't really believe it.... Especially because the weather is sooo bad here these days.. only rainy, dusty, windy and NO sun :( Last week we also had snow again :S hopefully spring or summer one day will coooome back :) 
The view out of my bedroom window :SSS brrrr last week
-> today it is raining like crazy :D 

Sooo 3 days ago was the first day of may and do you also celebrate this day as a public holiday? ;) Here the workers have a day off work and it also is kind of celebrated in another way ;) So lets see if i can show you a little bit of the german traditions? ;) or even the bavarian or swabian ones :) I don´t actually know it ;) But here for the 1st of May called "Maibäume" are set up in each little village :) Those are large tree trunks, which are decorated with individual artful carvings and wreath around it ;) 
And also it is a common tradition that boys put up a small baby birch tree decorated with a wooden heart and little tapes in all different colors in the treetop, in front of the house of a girl they like :) This usually shows that they adore and are mad about the girl they want to impress with the gesture of putting it up in the middle of the night so that they don´t notice it :) the difficult thing about it also is, that in the "Freinacht" (the night from 30th of april to the 1st of may) it is allowed tradition that everything can be stolen and put under the big Maibaum in each village ;) or it is stolen and never brought back :S and this often is the case at the Maierle ;) because other persons try to steal them at the night and hide them away ;) which is so unfair in my opinion :S buuuut luckily mine hasn't been stolen :D beeeeecause this year i also received one :) hahah this made me so happy, because mostly the girls with a boyfriend get one of theirs :) buuuut i don´t have a boyfriend so i found it so lovely that a guuuuuy set it up just for meee :) heehe :) lets see :) 

Tooo continue what also is going on ;) At the end of april to may here in Augsburg it also is time for the Augsburger Plärrer again ;) I think i already wrote about one in another post, but it is every year two times again and it every time is something special ;) it also was the first time now i wore my Dirndl this yeaaaaar now ;) so this season now also is opeeeened now ;) So this time i also went there twice ;) On the opening day, easter sunday with some really wonderfull friends I knew from going out ;) and on sunday now with my sister Susi and here boyfriend ;) who i both truly enjoy spending time with ;) heehe ;) So we had a great evening there ;) 
Haha I also got a traditional gingerbread heart
with saying like "beast" :DD
 And to finish this post : 
Here comes  a special greeting to a wonderful friend from school who i told about this blog and she read my whoooole blog (which is kind of a little much :D Haha) and i just want to mention her heeeeeere ;) Hahaa so hiiii Patricia ;) 
I wish you all now a nice, lovely and calm evening ;) enjoy yourself and seize the day :DDD 
xxxxxx
Friday, April 14, 2017

Eastertime in Germany and everywhere ;) *_*

Haaaaappy Springtime everyooone :) *_*

Actually the weather this weekend shouldn´t even be that nice, but in the last week it just was so much like spring and all the nature seems to come back to life again ;) Ahh i absolutely love this so much ;) also the days are getting longer and brighter again which really boosts my mood up ;) So far so gooood, what´s on right now? 

-> The answer is: Easter is just around the corner and today we have the "Karfreitag" (Good Friday in english i think:D) But i recently asked myself, is easter really celebrated 
everywhere in the world? Because it actually just is a christian holiday, or am i wrong
? ;) 


Selfmaaade ;) 
So i used my good old friend Google for help :DDD and so i came up to the funniest easter traditions :D because whereas here in Germany it is totally common and normal that the easter bunny brings us eggs in a easter basket, this is seen in other countries as absolutely crazy and confusing ;) because what has a rabbit to do with eggs?? :) especially if they are coloured or out of chocolate? :S SO you see here in Germany the kids get cute little baskets on easter day which are said to be delivered from the easter bunny itself and being hidden in the garden for the kids to search them ;) but not also those baskets are prepared for easter in Germany, each family creates and decorates a braided basket with a self-baked cake-lamb, some (maybe self-colored easter eggs-> haha i also coloured a few yesterday), a loaf of bread, some salt, and an easter candle for letting them consecrate in church on easter day ;) I think this is a really typical tradition here in Germany :) also the houses are decorated with many cute little easter eggs, hens, chickens, rabbits, spring flowers :) 

Time for my belooooved cat ;) BOBBEL B :) 

But some other very funny traditions i read about was the herring funeral in Ireland or the water shower in poland ;) i even don´t know if they are really common, but it was so funny to read about those as well ;) So on Good Friday today we do not eat any meat ;) so there is fish for lunch, but many people also go the traditional Kässpätzle essen ;) 
Sooo but now enough theory about all those festivities, now you know how to celebrate it, so lets do it hahaa just joking ;) I wish everyone of you a wonderful, relaxed, less troubled easter weekend and a lot of free time for your beloved ones ;) xxxxxx 
Tuesday, April 4, 2017

The ultimative Schnaaaapszahl 22 :)

Huhuuuuuuuuu Sweeties :) 

Oh yeeees just as the topic itself saaaays, I am officially 22 now :) OMG what an old aage right? :D
Noo of course not ;) I truly can tell you it was such a special day for me ;) And all in all it especially were the right people who made it as wonderful as it could even be for me ;) 
Soooo on the 29th i had taken a leave of absence from work and been woken up by my cat Bobbel actually quiet early ;) It was like he would know it was my birthday, because he often jumped into my bed when i was younger, but since last year never made it anymore ;) and on this daaay he jumped next to me and started cuddling :D it was sooo cute *_* 



Looooook what a cuuuute chocolate 
Nuuuutella Cake my mammy made for me *_* heaven as you can guess :D



All my presents hehe ;) 
So afterwards i made breakfast and received some sweet presents like a handbag, a jewelry for my pandora bracelet, colors for painting, a parfum, some clothes i had already chosen and some sweeeeeets ;) After that me and mum made our way to Augsburg to a clothes shopping center, which kind of has aaaaaaaall sorts and brands of clothes ;) Wow it was so big and i truly fell for it in a true euphoria hahaaaa :) I bought a some jackets, shirts, earrings, a sun glass and and and..... :S it was so fun ;) and so expensive in the end... :D 
For lunch we went for a place which offers "running sushi" you know this? Hahaa no it is not running after a sushi piece, it more is like a flow belt which again and again passes you table with all kind of different asian dishes and sushis :) each one on little cute plates you can take from it and eat ;) we booked all you can eat and it was just so nice :) and especially guessing which food is what was fun ;) because many of the chinese foods are so uncommon here as well ;) 


















So and in the evening we had some relatives and friends at our house here and it was also such a lovely way to finish this very special day for me ;) And another thing which made it such a wonderful day, that i was so surprised of how many people sent me their congrats :) there were like over 65 people sending me a message and this made me feel somehow special and i loved it :) Sorry hehe :) I feel so happy about this day all in all ;) Thanks to everyone who made it as lovely as it was :) xxxxx all the best to you ;) 
Saturday, March 25, 2017

One year agooooo ;) wow can´t believe it ;)

Goood morning  and haaaappy weekend my sweethearts :) <3

Yeeeeeeeah the week is nearly finished ;) haha at least the working part of it ;) 
First cabrio tour of 2017 *_*
I had a little more short week than normally, because i was sick two of the days because i had such back and all in all aches all over from my shoulders down my spine :S I felt so whacked all the week and so i missed one day of school and work, because i felt like i couldn´t really make it without getting too stressed over it :) 
So do you have any plans for the weekend? 
Here in Germany i hooope so much (but the chances may bee good :)) that spring settles in a bit :) Like all the beautiful little spring flowers come out and the suuuuun also shines on some days *_* Aw i am so in love with the lovely weather :) this is something which influences my mood soooo (often too) much ;) haha i am so much better at days when the sun is out and i feel like relaxed, calm, happy and glaaaad ;) 


RED again and not caring what others think ;)
Hell yeeeeeeeees :D 
Sooo now a short update ;) On the 23rd of march,  it exactly was a year i was released from the clinic :) WOW it feels so amazing for me that it is now 1 YEAR !!!! I can´t really believe how much has changed since then ;) Like in myself and all the people around me ;) I am so much happier now and looking back makes me feel so sentimental ;) because how many things happened and what experiences i made, made me the person i am now ;) And this makes me as happy as i could even be ;) Going through some hard, though times leaves its mark on a person, but each scratch makes me more unique and strong ;) like a battle wound which hurts so much, but after going through it, you will be proud that you survived! And this is how it kinda feels for me ;) 
I hope you know what i ttry to tell by this ;) each mistake, illness, hard time in life always will reveal a lesson for you, you maybe never wanna make again and this is how it shapes you to become the person you are ;) and i also love the quote: When life gets hard, remind yourself diamonds are made under pressure!!!!!


So never stay at one point stuck in your life, move on, forget, forgive, love again and never get stuck in the past ;) this is the wrong direction ;)
This is truly what i am also trying to do now: Being free and do stuff i wanna do, no matter what others could talk about ;)
So last weekend me and my sis were at an amazing concert of a well-known DJ, you also know Felix Jaehn? It was just a stunning atmosphere and we truly enjoyed ourselves ;) also got drunk and still trying to keep this euphoria of such evenings up and be myself ;) 

So much about me now ;) I hope you are all fine and having a wonderful, saturday morning ;) and a great weekend;) any special plans for next week? ;) 
Haha my only plan is getting older  ;) My birthday is coming up.... ;) 
xxxxxxxxxx <3
Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Calm down, relaaaax.. :) Life is coooool

HUhuuuuu huuuns ;) and all my buns :) 

How are you? It is the middle of the week and i am a bit powerless already puuuuh :) don´t exactly know why but feeling a bit dizzy since yesterday and i hope this will paaaass ;) staying optimistic ;) because on the weekend i am going to a big big concert ;) *_* Felix Jaehn is coming to Augsburg ;) hehe and guess who was a ticket ????? -><-

So one thing i also realized today is (One thing is: I am a very aggressive car driver :D haha) that something i truly have to work on is calming down and not being over the point as soon as i get a little stressed or under pressure ;S because i am so much like from 0 to 180 in one second or something ;) this exactly happens for example on my way to work ;) I nearly start from home on time (maybe already a few seconds late) but then i have like 100 slow trucks in front of me or which is rather as annoying as a truck a car which never drives in the normal allowed speed ;) they seem like they wanna win an award as the slowest people on the street ever :D haha i am too sarcastic now, i am sorry, but today i was in a bit of a hurry and i really went in such an aggressive mood because all people driving so slow and damn in a slow queue :( I really had to calm down afterwards :( I know this sounds like a really stupid problem, but for me this makes me feel stressed :( and i know the only way becoming less aggressive is getting started earlier for less time problems :( but this is something i am so bad at managing :( haha time management is not my strong point :DDD

This also is in many parts of my life a challenge for me: Time management and general management and organization itself :S

But more about this topic in the next post ;) I am now going to watch the "Bachelor" (haha you guys know this dating show in your country as well? ;)) soooo stupid but funny to watch :D wish you all a wonderful night now ;) xxxxxxxxxx 



Sunday, March 5, 2017

Overthinking and routine kills.... :)

Huhhuuuuuuuuu my Sweetnuts ;)
I know the topic sounds not very happy, springily and flowery, but actually it just features this blog post which i wanted to write since aaaages very well ;) 
Just a few short updateeeees about life right now ;) 
it of course needed to be pink ;) haha :D 

Sooo carnival is now over and i maaaade many many great new experiences, met many new cool people and simply had a fuuuuun and amazing time ;) which i really didn´t expect at all, because i never was such a carnival person, but it was so nice *_* 
Aaaaaaand so i had no school this week, but also work ;) but today i took the day off simply all in all for ME and went shopping to Augsburg ;) the weather was so lovely and warm so i went into the Annastraße and did some clothes and present shopping ;) AAAnd relatively spontaneous i decided to go to the piercer and maaaade a belly piercing ;) Hahaa :D this was something i was so unsure, but now i gooooot it ;) Heeeeell yes ;) Sorry i am a bit euphoric right now ;) last evening and today i am doing now absolutely nothing, because after last week the end dash of carnival and friday night out i am so tiiiiired haha ;S 


So now back again to my post intention ;) 
Something which i sooo often always realize again and again: Having some routine of course is necessary for every-day life but it especially if you have some tendency for any kind of addictions caaan be dangerous :S For me this always shows in the smallest little things which can suddenly make me feel confused in any situation :S Like for example, since i started working and also at any day in the week my eating times vary so so much that it really became unimportant for me, which at my worst time was like a succession of rituals and processions :( Oh this was so horrible thinking only about food each day and it became a habit and a routine :( it became worse and worse day by day if you don´t break through it and change something ;) so on the weekend i stand up later and make my breakfast also later and at working days i eat my bread for lunch and the warm meal for dinner :) so this simply varies and i lost the kind of ritual thing for it ;) So keep varying also the smallest things so that there is no chance of it becoming too strict for you ;) 


Also another thing i wanted to write about such a long time ago is my tendency of overthinking really EVERYTHING :) It kinda is like if i am/was having a great time and i totally enjoyed myself afterwards i pass every little detail again and again in my head and paraphrase like 1000 things into it .... of course: negative ones and i think i made this and that wrong again :( I hate this, because i know when i made it i was feeling so great and also mostly confident and sure about it :S So this truly makes me insecure afterwards and unhappy so this is a real problem for me, because i am such a person who enjoys something with her heart if she feels for it ;) but if i don´t feel comfortable i also immediately start asking myself what decisions i took were wrong or why i am feeling not good right where i am :( puuuuh a little bit confusing right? =) 
Haha so i better head up to bed right now ;S But i hope you somehow understood what i wanted to tell you about :) all going on in my head :S :D 
So i wish you a wonderful night now and a great start into the new week ;) hopefully it will be a good one ;) Lots of looove xxxx

Saturday, February 18, 2017

Faaaaasching :)

Hallööööchen meine Liiiiiiiieben *_* 

This is Germaaaaaaan ;) and because i live in Germany and now also a typical German festivity is celebrated, i will also be a little bit traditional and thought of telling you a little bit more about my hooooooome ;) Its carnival or we call it "Fasching" =) 
Many people here name it the 5th season of the year (I never really celebrated it thaaat much, but since last year i wasn't able to go to any celebration because i was in the clinic, i now reeeeaally enjoy it much more :)) 
Do you know carnival in your country? Of course i think you all have heard of the biig carnival in Rio :) I don´t really know much about this one but here in Germany we celebrate it with many "Faschingsumzüge" and other celebrations like balls or parties :) 
So tomorrow and nearly every weekend now many of such processions take place in all kind of villages :) big or small ones ;) 
So this one was made today ;) with a feeeew small drinks before ;)
Hahaa the fun thing we didn´t even recognize or know the guy in the background :D
Me, my sis Susi and my neighbour Franzi <3 

The special thing about carnival is, everybody (or all of those who want to :D) dresses up in fancy outfits and special costumes :) so you may not even will be able to identify them ;) haha :D the last few years i went out dressed up as a housemaid with everything like a dust wiper and such stuff ;) Awww and what do i do this year? ;) I am a real devil this year :D haha :) I just bought a devilish red short dress and a hairband with horns and some other little details ;) Of course deeeeeep down in my inner soul i of course am more an angel than a devil ;) just as my name already says haha :) but sometimes you just have to go against the crowd :D just jooooking ;) 


So toooday i was also going to a Faschingsumzug, a carnival parade, and this is just very much fun, because many little towns all create different carnival dares with many mottos and topics ;) like for example super mario, pirates, witches, vampires, ..... and they all go in a convoy through the streets with looooooud music and throwing sweets at the people standing in the streets watching and cheering them ;) Even though i never was part of such a special carnival union, i loooove watching them and afterwards always is a big party :) and with all the costumes and masks of the people this is so much fun ;) 


So how is this time of the year celebrated wherever you live? ;) 
Wish you a gooood night now my honeeeeys :) 
xxx Just enjoy the ride ;) my motto right now :) <3


Sunday, February 5, 2017

It is thaaaat day again :)

HAAAAAAAAPPY WORLD NUTELLA DAY!!!!!!!!!

Huhuuu my Sweetiiies :) 

Just shortly stopping again by and wanted to wish you a wonderful World Nutella Day at the 5th of february ;)
I nearly would have forgotten about it (shaaaame on me :D) but thanks to modern internet, i glady was reminded ;) So i wish you a wonderful chocolatey day now, and enjoy your spoon of Nutella ;) For sure you will looooove it ;) And always remember: Nutella can save lives :) 


Here in Germany we at the moment have a special offer of creating our own personal
Nutella jar and so i did my own ;)

Saturday, February 4, 2017

Puuuh I was having the fluuuuu :S :(

Helloooooooo my cuuties ;) xxx

Yes, the topic mostly describes it perfectly, doesn´t it? :D 
Oh i can tell you, i haven´t had fever since over 3 years or something like that, but last week on wednesday it really hit me.... :S 
It all started with kind of a confusing feeling of dumbness all over on tuesday evening, and then on wednesday when i stood up i felt really strange, so i decided not to go to work and chill ;) and then around lunchtime i suddenly felt so cold inside, like i was shaking and felt like i never would be warm again, even layered with 3 wool blankets and a hot water bottle :S so we measured my temperature and it was like 38,3 and my head felt like it was going to explode :S okaaay so the rest of the day and the next three ones was on the couch and in the bed :S not leaving the house any time felt so confusing for me:S and so on sunday when i finally thought i was over the worst part of it, i started sneezing and coughing :( haaha like everything would like to hit me in one week :) 
But nevertheless, it all passes and this week i already was fit as half a fiddle again :S Haha :D 
Chilling my time with my great company my cat Bobbel;) 

Sooomething i really realized at being sick is aaaagain (who wonders?:D) who really cares about you and your well being and blessing and how important ones health truly is :) You know what i mean? I starved myself so much the past few years with eating less and less and when something like a flu hits me i worry about myself ;) for me realizing this absolutely made me feel like a full idiot :) I mean, why am i concerned about my health when i can´t change something about being ill, but choosing to make me feel sick, powerless, hungry and starving is okay? Puh this really made me think again, how unbelievably harmful the own mind can be........
SO never look back, only in front!!!!!!
Wish you now a wonderful weekend my dears ;) Is carnival also celebrated in your country? ;) here it is starting right now ;) with all the costumes ;) I am going to do a devil :) HAAHa ;) 
xxxxx