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Wednesday, October 26, 2016

Standing up and admitting your mistakes and faults....Because Nobody´s perfect!

Huhuuuu my honey bunnies ;) 

No one is perfect! It is simple and it is plain, nobody!!! NOT EVEN YOU and especially not you if you are in the craws of Miss Mager! 
Why not accepting your meal plan once in a while or why not even letting a snack pass by uneaten? Because this is ill and it is wrong!! we must try to keep this in mind ;) ALWAYS ;) restricting and cheating is not good and it never is the solution ;) ONLY honest, self caring and fighting people can win this battle ;) MY battle, OUR battle !!!!! But everyone for him/herself ;) DO IT FOR YOURSELF :) I truly have to realize this more and more in my head, because if you are not doing this, you never will heal fully :S and this is not what I want........

But don´t blame yourself for being a looser, a misfit or a failure by times.. You won´t stay this forever and it happened once, so change something about it so it won´t happen again! 
The one thing you just have to hope for is, that your beloved ones will forgive you those slips and fails :S and for them this might be so hard to understand so as a result of this they may blame you for it :) but you have to believe in the fact that time will heal wounds and scars :S maybe not today or tomorrow, but give it/them time :) if they see you are able to change they will be by your side again ;) 
So always keep in mind your life, your world and everything you do needn´t and never will be PERFECT, so neither have you ;) For this I looked up a song text which matching to this topic came to my mind  ;) And it made me remember so much ;) 
The song is called "Nobody´s perfect" by Mike and the Mechanics ;) I don´t actually know if anyone of you knows it, because i think it may is from the 80s or something around this time ;) but it made me remember our special family holidays in our mobile home in ireland, scotland, itaaly, sweden, norway, portugal, gb, ..... and i felt so happy and childish about it ;) I was just a little small girl sitting in the back of the car and listening to this music my parents had on their ipod and was playing nintendo gameboy ;) careless and free ;) enjoying my life and not thinking about anything serious ;) How much I wanna be free like this again ;) And also the lyrics of the song are soooooooo perfectly suitable for being unperfectt ;) HAhA so I hope you will like it ;) Maybe you also will give it a listen and tell me what you think? ;) Would be so happy to hear from you ;) 

NOBODY'S PERFECT SONGTEXT

It must be hard
being an angel
when the devil in your heart
won't set you free
it must be hard
being an angel
when the world has let you down
imperfection all around

Hey look at me
it must be hard
it must be hard
it must be hard.

Nobody's perfect
all of the time
nobody's perfect
we are what we are
there's no perfect reason
and no perfect rhyme
for most of the time
that's what we're looking for.

Gentlemen gentlemen please!
can you please support the notion
of what I'm saying here
that the person here in question
must be an angel here on earth
if they can't see a human being
for what a human being's really worth
gentlemen please!

Nobody's perfect
all of the time
nobody's perfect
we are what we are
there's no perfect reason
and no perfect rhyme
for most of the time
that's what we're looking for.

It must be hard
being an angel
it must be hard
when the world has let you down
it must be hard
being an angel
it must be hard.

Nobody's perfect
all of the time
nobody's perfect
we are what we are
there's no perfect reason
no perfect rhyme
most all of the time
that's what we're looking for...
Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Sentimental flashbacks, confusion, nostalgia and old memories ....

Heeeeeeyheeey my bestiiiiies *_* 
How are you? And how is the weather at your place right now? =) Does it maybe describe your mood at the moment? :D 
Here in Germany right now the weather is a little bit dusty, but with some wonderful sunny sunbeams here and there :) I love those little bright shines throughout the day :) they always make me smile :) Oh but all in all it definitively can be said, that it got so much colder since the beginning of october, also in the nights there is nearly zero degree :) but for all of this I am settled ;) I bought a new pair of shoes and a warm superdry jacket :) *_* So in love with that :) And also for the new start of the season, haha no just for fun ;) I again dyed my hair in a deep, also a little bit striking red ;) hahaa so I can´t be overlooked: the red fire alarm :)


Fuuuuun, so there are so many many things I currently am thinking about: 
On the one hand my life here is sooo great, as I never truly anyhow could have imagined it again, because so many wonderful, cool, amazing and exciting (neew) things happened, but on the other, I sometimes feel such a strange kind of sentimentality coming up and I feel like I would miss some of the good times in the clinic :SS Soooo strange, i can tell you this, because i end up feeling like a total mess, you know? ;) But my mum also told me about this kind of nostalgia she had after leaving her school (she was in a boarding school ) So after it is over, it seems like you would only remember ALL of the good and wonderful times you had there ;) so it can be called a sentimental flashback I think... :) but I know now what i want, and this is doing my apprenticeship, going out, having fun, living my real life :) going into a clinic only means again freezing all the things i have got here and go away for a limited episode of time :S and afterwards coming back and again starting at zero..... Never actually wanna do this and restart again :S
But I think such flashbacks and mixed feelings you can experience in many sectors of your life ;) just take a holiday as an example, but also maybe harmful memories, like the end of a relationship, you still have such days wishing back to those days, even though they may hurted yourself :S But this is human :) 

Because just at the moment I am more than ever so happy with all those current happenings here, and I feel like floating a little bit ;) Unsure where it takes me, but i know by the help of my family and friends it will take me somewhere wonderful :) Lets just hope for this ;) 
Love u all and wish you a great middle of the week ;) YOU ARE AWESOME *_*